I thought I would share a little about myself and my journey. I was born and raised in England as was my husband,we have five children, two from my first marriage and three with my husband now, my Beau, two of these precious babies did not make it through the pregnancies, this is a hard thing to write as I have only shared the story of the two baby boys that did not make it through the pregnancy with close friends. There is no need for details except to say that I think of them and the short journey we took together. A little piece of my heart goes to all women who have experienced this incredibly difficult trial.
After trying for many years to add to our beautiful family, we have arrived at a place where that is no longer possible. My older children are now young adults and navigating their way through life, they live with us at home but the time I have left with them is slipping through my fingers....
Our youngest son is ten years of age and a delightful little nature boy, he loves all creatures great and small and is the keeper of a growing number of animals!
We are now living in a land down under and have recently become Australian Citizen's. We love our life here and are so grateful that we have been blessed to be able to stay here forever, under the warmth of the sun.
Here is where I will start my blog. I have been praying for a long time to receive direction for my life as a wife, a mother and ultimately a daughter of my Heavenly Father. What am I to do now that my children are growing? I have worked hard, given all to the ones I love, endured illness, basked in the light of personal inspiration and growth and now need to know what next?
I thought I was headed towards a life of studying to become a Bikram Yoga instructor, something I have fallen in love/hate with! Anyone who has taken this kind of yoga class will understand that sentiment towards it. I thought I would finally get my degree in Nutritional Medicine. Then all of a sudden I had some promptings come to me, then a flood of inspiration, before I knew it I was on the path of felling that the right thing for me at this time was to home educate Jared. This was strange as we had picked out his next school which we felt was going to be a great place for Jared, so I was not expecting this. Although I had had these feelings come to me before but had pushed them far away from my mind.
I now could not push them away as I had before, they were too strong so I decided to get some courage and faith and just follow them and see where they led me. Where they led me was to a new friend who also home schooled her children. Again I had a good friend already who home schooled and we had had many conversations about that and whether I felt up to the task but had always decided NO! So here I was again full circle with this new friend. She gave me a book to read called Leadership Education and as soon as I opened the first page and started to read I had confirmation that this was what I had been praying for. I had had this experience before with other books I had read. I just knew that this was the plan for me. I was humbled as it would take me in the opposite direction than I was planning, I was grateful because of the peace that washed over me and the reassurance that my journey was known and I was and always have been held in the hollow of my makers hand and that it would all be ok. I was worried to brake the news to my husband as I was pretty sure this was not in his wildest imaginations :) But this book had already changed me, it had softened me, it was leading me to a level of living that i had prayed for, longed for and sought for.
I shared with my husband my thoughts, I explained how this could bless all our lives including our older children, how I wanted to be a better example myself with a life of learning and I asked that he pray about it, that we together pray about it, he could see the change in me and could not dismiss how deeply this was affecting me. It could potentially change our lives,the lives of our young adults and the life of Jared forever. So he did what any good man would do he shared his concerns in his usual gentle manner, never imposing his will upon me and I listened, he agreed to ponder and pray and I agreed to wait.
I am still waiting for a final answer. Aaron is reading the book right now and I am praying that we can be united on this choice. I will let you know as soon as we get clarity as to the road ahead but for now, I am truly grateful for the principle of personal prayer and revelation. That we can receive direction from a loving Father in Heaven to help us navigate our way back to him, that he knows us by name and has a plan for each of us. Farewell for now ......
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